A Fresh Start...and a Moment of Silence

Sometimes, even the sweetest of lives need a fresh start.  Today as I looked back over a blog I created several years ago with the intentions of being some hipster thirty-something, I laughed at the person I was and I paused for a LONG moment of silence because that girl is GONE.  She was evicted, kicked out, thrown to the curb, fed to wolves...I could go on.  The point is, who she was is not who I am today.  While she IS part of my story, she is only a chapter; not the whole book!  I must admit I am SO glad she is gone, it is almost freeing!  I was so concerned with the problems that surrounded me that I had NO control over.  I was concerned with the vanity of what people thought of me.  I cringed at the thought of criticism, constructive or otherwise.

Fast forward six years....

I love myself for who I am.  Imperfections, wrinkles, stretchmarks and all.  I love myself on good days and I especially love myself on bad days (those are the days I deserve and extra cup of coffee).  It has taken time but I learned I need no one's approval but my own.  I can say no.  People don't always have to be happy with me or my actions, that doesn't change the fact I am still a good person and that I still have tremendous worth!  

I am not a fashionista.  I prefer comfort to being confined by clothing that is deemed "fashionable" by a size two model.  I love makeup but I don't like to get up early to put it on.  I found I love having my nails look good; either painted or wrapped.  My hair naturally falls into place now; I spray it to plump it up.  

What else have I learned about my myself in six years?  I learned that I can hit my all time HIGHEST weight, become absolutely miserable....

then hit my all time lowest adult weight 

AND then bounce back to the somewhere in the middle all in about a year!  

That's NOT healthy!  I am now taking better care of the vessel that I was given to slip and slide through this crazy life with.  I am following a wonderful, life changing eating plan and as soon as my broken foot finishes healing I will be incorporating the exercise portion of the plan as well.  For me, the 21 Day Fix plan has become a way of life that makes sense.  Portion control, eating the correct foods in the right amounts, and exercise makes for a successful long-term weightloss/weight management plan.  

My 21 Day Fix journey has had me discovering more about myself.  Looking deeper into my soul, my needs, my wants, my goals.  I have been happier than I could have ever imagined.  I have met some of the nicest ladies that I am proud to be on this life journey with.  I can't wait to see where the path leads next!

Be kind to yourselves, 

Until next time....

xoxoxo